Recovering from Binge Eating Disorder

looking back

when i was struggling

i would write notes to myself next to my of peanut butter

this will make you a slow runner

i would eat until i could not eat anymore and then go back an hour later and eat even more

i once skipped a test to binge. i once binged the night before and morning of a cross country race

i believed in my heart that recovery was possible

i am proud to say that i cannot remember my last binge. it has been a minute. :)

so i'm going to do something different; i am going to be completely honest and vulnerable in discussing my struggles

i used to write this way

course i didn't like myself much when i was anorexic either

when i was struggling

however

haley

everything in moderation

you will feel sick to your stomach

you will hate yourself

i would throw my binge foods away if i had too much that day

you see

binging was the only way i knew to cope

i could not admit this to anyone because i was too ashamed

that brings me to the question i am asked so often

honestly

as far as my recovery from bed goes

my recovery from anorexia was different because i found it easier to seek help. i went to therapy every week

i do wish i had had the courage to seek help when recovering from binge eating disorder

so i'm speaking out now. i know it's late

fun to be around

i reach a recovered state when i stopped believing ed's lies. i stopped listening to this stupid voice in my telling me i was enough

i grew tired of hating myself; i learned to forgive myself

even a day

i celebrated the victories

eventually i noticed the period of time between relapses was growing larger

i took each relapse as a learning experience. i pinpointed my triggers

i hope you be that inspiration

xxx haley